Romans 3:2

It feels like a false religion and a cult I was raised into, living in the “bible belt” but I am reading about Jews vs Gentiles and they are the same to God... & that every man woman and child is a sinner. And not one man woman or child does right, not even one. 

That is why I prefer nature and natural. 

But I’ve been told God’s ways are higher than our ways. I’m reading about judgemental behaviour in humans. It speaks of circumsision. But it says it is not required. It says circumsicion of the heart is what is desired. 

The tongue and heart are said to be wicked and deceitful in the bible. 

But I do know the Race that created us as “Gods” wanted humans circumsized like they look. Is that even.. 👀 what the Hell did I just read. Lmao 🤣 

Be mature...self. 

I feel so unhealthy I feel like a Pharoah:( And That was the House of Bondage, the pit! Hell! Egypt used to rule the world. My body feels like it’s been prepped and groomed. Hair cuts and alterations via the electronic harassment. And clothing style. 

The male sheath is like the female hymen. I think evil beings get enjoyment out of removing them or hurting them. Am I taking this too literally?! Sorry. Keeping this on private. It should be common knowledge but people can’t be mature. Women should break their own hymen & sex isn’t always how. Playing sports can. Can’t remember what else. I read venerial diseases are why men want young women. I don’t think pharmaceuticals really cure stds. 

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My thoughts today-- I don't even care that someone deleted me.

 The entire world is brainwashing.

I can't..like..function with knowing this sometimes.

"There are formats to the way things are done," - female voice

So, we should take care what we let into our minds.

I chose to explore the unknown. I really wish I hadn't looked into conspiracy theories and all of this. Because I ended up paying the consequences, of becoming a person of interest, however, I have always been a SRA, a Satanic Ritual Abuse, victim.

I long for a life with an established man. Maybe older than me. 

Really want the right person, though. But not as bad as I want to leave here, lol, jk. I really want out of this fucking apartment, or something to do with my life and my time, my money. This area is kind of rural, so there's lots of walking, ugh, and it's overpopulated. 

I want something more out of life than this. I was hoping to meet people with this computer, but I'm in a bad mood, and I'm scared I'm going to meet the wrong person. Like a dangerous person. And I'm vulnerable, schizophrenic, mentally ill, from the SRA. And Mkultra. I guess I am safe by myself, with my family around me. 

I see all these beautiful women, but it's probably filters, and photoshop. :( I wish I could be young again, I'd do things so differently. Besides the fact that I'm trans, I am still not happy with being alive. I want to be male, I would learn how to be male, from that life of being male. So I try to look and act feminine, I don't want any crude labels or being called names, or being even more weird than what I already am. 

I am determined to lose weight, and I am eating less. By cutting down on my medication, I have become more active, but I don't want to deal with this sun. It is SO hot. I worry about heat stroke, etc. 

My medications are excessive, two bipolar pills, one antipsychotic, one mood stabilizer. I don't want to be on that particular antipsychotic or that particular mood stabilizer. I don't like them. Me no likey. Lol. I want something else.