Yesterday I Realized How Much Stronger I Am ~~

 

 

 

 

ASTRO GIRLFRIEND : JESSICA

 Wahey. Today started out kinda bad, then I called Helen ~ and realized what I should be doing... I am getting my meds filled and (hopefully changed) -- to something that doesn't cause weight gain.... I want to be a skinny mini.

Three personalities are competing for space in my mind, they are like racing horses, trying to run faster and faster to the forefront. I don't know who they are, last night Carousel came to Front, and he is a Male Nurse, that is his "Job"..... He is kind of um gay but he likes Harley or Seraquiel and is into Females right now -- So he is NOT looking for any boyfriends ~~~

The voices said there was more than just one Harley Quinn for me. And that there was more than just one Joker. Now they're saying there is only one Joker. I dream of other Harley Quinns and Jokers... I dream of Joker men... I know of Harley Quinns that are males.. and Jokers that are Females... 

So now I will tell y'all about Jessica ~

She is a Handler ~ And I don't really recall what happened with us the other night when I was drinking, but I was a Male and Probably more like Ember and letting her lead me around on a leash with a collar. I remember that lol. At least, she is saying not much else happened.

I don't remember much more than that....

Last night, she sucked me off ...It was Literally the best Orgasm I have ever had.. I craved more and more ~ I was so Gluttonous. I see her, I see the Future in her beautiful eyes. And she seems to have Red hair, like my Internal Form, the Prince... A...something. Ariane... ??? 

When she looks at The Prince, me, I try to make him less aggressive, she tries to bring that aspect of me out ~ I am not even into this ~ Maybe con-non con ... But I was a very bad guy previously ~ In past lives ~ Where it wasn't Con ...... How COMMON... Most men would rape if there weren't any repercussions, I find no gender is better than any other, I would be NON-BINARY because Women touch without any feelings, and Men will legit kill you after fucking you ~~~ Or raping you ~~~ So -- both suck .. Sigh. Well, Ladies are superior, they can have the babies. Yes. 

Sometimes ... I catch myself thinking about my past lives on this planet .. and I wonder how many of these humans (or seemingly humans) are related to me. I am a masculine entity, I don't know if I want to attract anyone at all, maybe I just really seek affection ~ But people are pretty terrible ..and emotionally clumsy.... I am not just "a Prince" ... I am a GOD.

I want Jessica ~ And snuggles. I wonder if Jessica would be enough for me the rest of my days. And then thoughts cross my mind how hot does someone have to be for their partner to consistently keep trying to make them cum? Ha. People are so fucking selfish ~ And that's another reason the pills are going away. Lol. I cannot have those powerful O's ... Not right now. Ugh. I feel neutered. These pills were given to sex offenders in other countries. Psychiatric. They mess people up mentally, to where when they get to the age of college, they cannot do the tasks assigned to them. And thus remain uneducated, to do manual labor....

"Weeding out the population ~" Says Jessica, she is sitting at the end of te bed. She presses her moist, sticky lips to mine. I resume typing. Sigh. I think the internet is fucking up and I am going to lay down now ~

I read that Volcanoes are going to start being active ~ We are going to die. Lol.